welcome to mind freak.
a poem to freak with your mind.
F I R S T F R E A K I N G
fly last oh fly last
stay fast until the gush
at the end is too much
and then fly, fly last
recount black doom opening
doors where streaming horror
blends in a mirror of soul-fed
disaster yes disaster
time bomb fraught hazard
worrying every inch of the way
with child height dog barking
at a father's knees
can an eye resist a briar?
can try harder be to blame?
can the messages from fate be false?
false as faded hopeless loss?
strung out ragged
a pain seized from the beyond
taken whole and swallowed
the revengeful pill
pull on brakes - they don't work
try to roll out - the door's locked
g-force holds the screamer in the chair
while senses are knocked out
failure's white bruises proliferate
the spores of pain spread malaise
chaos seizes female seers and
makes good hope turn to seizure
euthanasia - all that's left
for good sanitised dope
it didn't work, doesn't make good
fairy food as fake as high tea
as low as mushroom malaise
spotted mould growing on cheese
as low as empty cupboards and
litter strewn floors on saturday night
take the blame
make a claim
give up the aim
pretend to be lame
F I R S T F R E A K I N E N D S
S E C O N D F R E A K I N G
where slime clings and multiplies
inside the lightless earth
minerals gleam
maternal worries noisily populate
talking to nightmares
and dies on a lacerated tongue
suffocated silence within a living tomb
curses gurgle and drip
bad news fermenting
in the haze of the unforgotten
oil speeds through lungs
and the mark of ages distorts
and yet within this unwholesome cavern is power
the power to pacify, to quieten
and the power to begin again fresh
fresh freaky hot and stinking
a bed of gore and weakness
where loves make their bodies weep
and sores spread across their flanks
heart raved off its clean sweat
and pulled deep from its heart of
filthy fear gone stale and rancid
from years of freakish solitary
leave fears alone, watch them
multiply, demonic vibes thrive on
the lost oil of self-service - be alone
a hard barrier surrounds the mind fck cess pit
cult vultures lurk in pairs
watching for a scarlet slash
a mauve mauve pause and the time to swoop
upon wretched prey half-dead passive
scavengers pull at twisted tendons
with beaks splattered crimson
and dust on their hunched shoulder feathers
cultivate your flesh so you can be prey
tore up too much personal information
it was a soul rain of metallic pain
cut up all over where soft hope dreamt
it pulsed points on pressure points
perpetual old wounds ritually reopened
fro the psychedelic hurt of futile failure
to requisition the sound scream of 'help'
in an insulated solitary space - it is futile
roaming beast leaps out from hidden grotto
green man conceals the root of intent
a tide of contaminated blood seeps away
the nerves of anxiety, for all is fear
crippled by scar tissue created by wounds
broken and mended, broken and mended
repeatedly the scar tissue seals up possibilities
wrong reckless rigidity ruins your magickal dimension
baritone squall squeamish lament
keep squeals operatic theatrics
graceful fingers point out the prey
and the scavengers gather in the box
chavs beg for commentary
from the news reader sealed in a glass container
lips moving in synch to the stage played psycho drama
rocking to and fro, to and fro, grinning horror doll
screeching and pounding and then a
thump, thump, thump, of pounding feet
forming a ritual circle, entrapment
at the front the white trash stand up and make phone calls
idiot chat to empty head
lack of mind fck no no no
you don't understand each other
however much you incessantly babble
telepath smooth fit mind muscle allergy free whole
we know what we mean silver stream and gleam
popped bubbles do not demean us
whole from the earth but not within
take your symbols out of our faces
burn your good luck charms
bravery is out of place
relax - fck up your mind freak with us
E N D O F F R E A K I N G T I M E T H E S E C O N D
cut up in self-inflicted slashes
dried up in white scars ugly demented
ancient under water the drowning time
there's no one listening to your confession
you do not exist
denied you are minus life
forget yourself, relax
live in a barn, squat and be an expletive
this mind freak fck is where the heart is
E N D O F F R E A K I N G M I N D
F R E A K I N G T I M E TH R E E
internal deprivation stalked hawked secrets
mysterious deceiver sexual reliever
stalked bruised slipped transferred
welcome to suffocation, diminutive one
shy criminally deny don't try
relax receive a stalker deceives
relieve your belief in symbols of ritual
it's an internal affair secret and bruised
scan for spies invisible and ready
infiltrated your every nook and digital cranny
a system of effort and action expired
superfluous degraded
superceded defunct a wasted system
useless used-up a ritual completed
a symbol deleted a short-cut deleted
unwanted and battered bruised and ruined